Don’t Say Whocares When You Really Cares

I was on two day course today.  Tomorrow will be Wednesday.  I really hate going back to office, but will have to face the truth..  Back you go! 

I went out wif wendy tan for dinner.  Over the chat, we did some personality test which I attended from the communications course.  Both of us are "The Drivers".  Which means very domineering, impatient, quick tempered and maybe quite autocratic when stressed.  Wendy asked if i was a moody person and I admitted.

The stock market is super down today.  Supposed to be a good time to buy in…  isn’t it?

I will go office early in the morning tomorrow around 9am.  Surprise!!

Will finding a new job makes me less moody?

..26062007..

I woke up with an uneasy heart to head towards the kallang stadium for the netball match.  Was very very afraid that my colleagues will disapprove of me joining the other team.  The deed is done and there is no return.  It is truly a very very hard position for me to be in.  I was in the other team instead of my own med team. 

Ah Ng and Mr Poh say "oh u huh…?" to me.. and i kept quiet.  In the end, we won first, yntuc second and med was third.  This was quite impressive already, for a team who have not practised.  I was relieved after the match..:)  REally.

This is my first time having a trophy… of my life!  I will target the 10km Standard Chartered Run this Sept.. All the way…

Two bruises on my knees in exchange for a trophy and cash prize of minimal value..  Was worth it!!

Right after the match, we went to Marine Parade for dinner at Jack’s Place.  It was an enjoyable lunch, followed by the ktv session with the rest of the colleagues.

It was really a good time for me to exercise and made me a more healthy person.  What a "unregretful" decision i have made 3 weeks ago.  It certainly was worth it!

..24062007..

Gotcha! 

You may skip reading this entry, if you are not Ms Yeo Liew Ern. 

We msn briefly in office this afternoon and you told me you had changed your contents at friendster and even shown me the description you had amended for yourself.  Mine.. was I not shocked???  I was.

Let me explained.  You have been a very happy-go-lucky girl even after your hardship for the past one and half years since career switch to be a childcare teacher.  Circumstances have forced you to change your mindset to be more positive and sensible woman.  In the far past, you were fragile and not forward looking.  In the not so far past, you were being thrown out of a tower, and struggled to learn how to swim.  Now, at present, it seems like you are swimming with direction.

What surprises me really is the emergence of the stubborn aggressiveness that won’t be even be seen last year.  What really catalyst it out of you?  You were never once an aggressive person.  Now I am glad, you don’t need people to stand up for you, coz you can stand up for yourself, and wif pride.  Maybe what you lack now is the ability to be firm and stand by your decision.  At times, we may be uncertain when it comes to making important decisions.  However, once we have bravely decided, there is no turning back.  "走出去就有路, 勇敢地邁向第一步."

When you may not know what will happen next, its best to visionise the positive outcomes in the direction you want it to happen.  Try it, it really happens.  Indulge in miracles…

..20062007..

The Tiger is in hibernation mode.  Its really pointless to be feeling anything.

..12062007..

I slept immediately after the dinner, around 6plus.  Had quite a long dream before I woke up around 11am.  I thought it was early in the morning already.  It was not. 

There were three parts to this dream.  I was touring a historic tomb site with my mother and brother 1 at night.  Seems very dangerous and eerie, trying not to step on unsteppable areas.  When we finally walk out, we were really relieved!  There were other people waiting for us to gather together.  Brother 2 there also.

There was not a single day my dreams are not strange.  I woke up feeling abit disturbed and hot.

The other part is myself at office.  I dream of MK and ST, wanting to offer me a communications job in a separate department. 

Another part is a dunno whether its me or not.  Alone in the car at night.  Viewing an unexplained phenomenon.  The scenary is magical and secretive. 

In total, there is 5 hours of sleep.  I did however manage to wake up and type this blog.  Likely that I will wake up very early the next morning.

..10062007..

Today I managed to read one very surprising email which makes me almost fell off my chair.  My current boss is appointed GM of my ex company (Never Clean Inside), this means he shall become boss of my ex-ex nasty boss AGS!  What a great news indeed.  Truly, what goes around, comes around.  I really believe in retribution.  Now I have stayed long enuff to see it, finally.  Is it good news or not?  Since I’m still here?!?  This marks a happy day for me to start my blue blue week.

Val called me at night time and told me that she will pass me the reference letter tomorrow.  Yupee! One more for me to keep!  So happy   Anyway, I was very very happy today.  Lindy passed me a hand-made card with fotos that we took together.  She was so so sweet!  I was very touched lor. 

I went to CS with Jessica and bought something from Sembawang.  Guess what?  I did managed to purchase the "Xue Lang Hu" in cantonese version.  This was least of what I have expected.  Seems like you will get it when you are not shopping for it.

I received an email from Karim (the constant motivator) about patience.  Patience is not about waiting and doing nothing (maybe yes?)  Being impatient can work against the nature (agreed.)

I will do a simple test for the next 5 days.  Cultivate patience for myself, not to be angry so easily with the slighest delay, etc.  See how patient I can be with myself, at home and work too.

..06072003..

HP sent me a friendster msg informing me that Mr F finally come clean with his status.  That was what a man is supposed to do what   Recalling back, I was glad that I made the right decision to let go of this friendship and state my intent to "just be friends" outright.  It sort of makes me more 大方.  Due to "suspense" over time, it has made me rather unhappy with him for his dishonesty for at least the past 2 weeks.  Last night, I told myself that I should forgive him and although i find it hard to, but none-the-less, i did it.  Today, while I was walking in the interchange, I recalled the "happy times" we had, which sort of makes me 感嘆 that its afterall history already.  Something like..  be happy that it happened and the feeling of liking a person is real at that moment in time.

The verdict is out.  The compensation accorded to the china worker is $30k.  Have to further lower the amount via further negotation.  Its not an easy thing to just sit down and do nothing when one has totally no knowledge about the employment laws.  Need to check out with MK at office tomorrow.

I dreamt about James on Sunday.  It was something like him coming back to sg but in the dream, I’m not sure if I finally did get to see him or not.  Felt an urge to email him but withheld.  It is a dream after all (although the feeling is like so real.)

..05062007..

Today I attended a wine workshop by Mr Lam.  What surprises me is that the participants who attended all are very very young and PMEB type.  They are truly very enthusastic about wine.

Terms you can hear about wine:  Never say fruity, smooth when describing a wine.  I realised that actually, I was not talented at all when it comes to wine tasting.  There are 4 steps to wine tasting:  1)  See, 2)  Sniff,  3)  Taste  4)  Jot down the notes on a log book

Wine tasting requires imagination and lots of unknown vocabulary.  Excellent wine commentators are hard to find.  Indeed, it was an eye opener for me.  There was no need to advertise so hard for such workshops coz itself, to the wine lovers are already a draw due to its low supply.  Before I left, I took photos of all the participants.  All were pretty entertained by Mr Lam’s humourous way of presenting and describing the various wine scenarios.  Totally hilarious..  Seems that all the participants had a fun fun time! 

I met up with Wendy and CK after that.  There was alot of people at City Hall, probably going to the IT show.  Also, it was not a very difficult thing to locate my way to meet the friends. 

Had snack, dinner and den coffee at City Hall.  PH arrived for the second part.. She is very kind to treat me again.. lol…

Btw, it was a very interesting conversation coz she did a numerology analysis for me, which again impresses me.  She is always so generous~ an impression that I always have of her whenever i meet her. 

I want to get well soon!  Hope my cough will go away..  Just do not come and disturb me again…

..03062007..

每個人都有屬于自己默默守著的天使.  有時候, 他是立體的, 有時是隱形的.  總在
心中某心生處,    無怨言, 忠心守候.  在你最無助時, 呼喚著鼓勵的痊言, 安撫疲憊不堪的心.

我有兩個隱形天使與一群立體的天使 - 好友們.  Nicholas & Elaine.  最近,一位於我有深厚友誼的慧萍也成為了我最感激的天使之一.  謝謝你在我最需要答案時,為我 點了我一把明燈.

美好回憶, 有待時間的沖淡. 時間終究會過去的.  能在裡頭吸取經驗何嘗不是一種
學習?

是時候打開心靈之窗奔放奧游樂園了. 

..01062007..