Thank you
Dear JC,
I would like to thank you for teaching me alot of things, showering me with all your love and concern. There are alot of things I should have done but have not. Alot of words I should have said but have not.
Whenever you scolded me, I just felt very down and upset. I seemed to lose my sense of self-worth. Each time we get into serious argument, I can’t help but to ask myself, should we still be together? In fact, I have asked this many many times. Perhaps this is very unhealthy, but is this a sign? Whenever I think of the scenario, where we no longer can be together, I have to fight back my tears.
Through things that have happened during the course of our relationship, time have shown the negative side of me. Self-centered, Wooden like a piece of block and too reliant on you.
Am I able to measure up to your expectations? Am I able to be your reliable partner? Am I able to stand by you in times of hardship? Am I able to be there for you when you need me?
Although you have a bad temper, you do have a heart of gold. I’m not that nice as you think I am. I hope you are not too totally disappointed with me.
Does this seems like our relationship will not withstand the test of stress and difficulties? Time will tell.
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