Ended.
18 June marks the end of our relationship. We broke up on the bus, while he is making his way back home. The reasons he gave are very lame: He is too busy with his life and hence too tired to handle our relationship. That was why he chose to give up our r/s. The fact is, he doesn’t not like me enuff to carry on, to perserve. I called up huiping and told her about it on Wed nite (the same nite). After that, i still harbour the tots of having some hopes with him. But when i called Liew Ern on Thursday nite, i realised that we are finally over. I smsed him on Sat morning and asked him if he told his mum already about our breakup. He said he already done so, who seems like putting a dagger on my heart. What a way to say it, in a nicer way, let us not see each other for some time. I tot it was cooling down period, but it was not. I have to accept the hard truth, sooner or later.
I felt very stupid, why did i fall for such a heartless and selfish person? What did i see in him in the first place. I really felt so cheated.. If given a choice, i would not have started at all, if this is wat will happen. I felt like being betrayed. Although, there wasn’t any third party involved.
I did a tarot reading for us prior to our BKK trip. It says we will break up. It really comes true. Now, I am really very very upset with him. I had wanted to end this r’s but was not able to speak up as I like him too much to voice it out. How i wished i could be smarter, not be so deluded in my fantasy!!
I visited Liew Ern on Sat. Have dinner with her too. Was still very very down. This is the only time i can be so down.. i tell myself that i would definitely brace up once things are more settled and calm. I felt so sleepy.. that was why i am so troubled and unable to concentrate on my stuffs.
I must have owe him alot of money or done him wrong in the past life, that was why I have to pay back this lifetime.
Nonetheless, I can finally not suffer under his cluthes le… This was afterall, a final relief.
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