Late Night Owl
Within two weeks of my break, I have cultivated to be a very very late sleeper. It is not easy to cultivate actually. I still feel very slow when it comes to making myself do more things. Recently, I have been spending time, just doing nothing. It is something, which I have not been for a long time. In the past, even if I am on leave, I will still make myself busy. Should I go get the blades? I am still not sure, as I do not have the strong feeling that I will continue to have it as a long term hobby. I have been going out for night life, it seems. Quite enjoyable, but it is ony for short term basics. Not going to be long term, as I am definitely not going to tahan for so long. It is a very very long time for me to recognise I should be alone for some time now. In the past, I have been quite reliant on JC. It is only after 10 mths I realised it is like a drug, which makes me not me. I will resume writing in that 12 yr old diary which I have kept since 16 (hehe). Eventually, there will be a slot for my other half. Perhaps that episode is meant to be left out from my diary in the first place. Hence, I will make sure that i write every episode in that diary so that i won’t miss out the final one. I discovered something eerie! My last entry was 06/08/07, exactly one year from now. Does that signify something? Alot of things have happened within this one year, which is more than enough for me to accept. I have fallen in love, and fallen out of love with a guy whom was not meant to be. I must make sure I am ready, before I start anew. Give myself two years ba.
I have learnt quite alot of dishes from my mum these few days when I am not working. Next time I can cook for myself when I am living independently. I would love to stay by myself, coz it is something which I have not done before. How will that be like? I may not be able to travel as often as my new company is based locally in Singapore. Quite saddened when think of it. Nevermind.
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