Last Day As A Shakeleg Club Member
Today is considered quite a depressing day for me, as I have to start my new job tomorrow at MIS. Sort of feel quite down, as I have to face the reality of working world again.
I played the CD of my favourite songs. Used to be a very motivating for me to listen to its music. Now upon hearing it, I don’t really feel a thing of being very motivated. Its is perhaps a state of mind. Still negative.
I need inspiration, not just another negotiation. Got one thought that suddenly sprung out of me today. All cases should be classified as wrong until they are proven right. Today I played the defence lawyer for Mr W, as Mr K always pull him down with unkind words. I felt abit buay song to hear that, so I always help to suan him back. Although in some ways, I dun like Mr W, I still help him la, on account of Wendy. When I got suan by Mr K, its amazing that I will still have ppl to help me.
This is strange but funny, coz when i intended to help Wendy, she will make me Lao Kui.. Never help me in front of Mr K. See.. It’s a vicious cycle.
I was quite calm during the ktv session, as I din really have the mood to sing. As my inner feeling ask me not to sing too much. There are alot of songs I wanted to sing, but was too afraid, as I might just break down. I am abit scared to sing in fact. While I sat down listening to some of the songs, I felt abit sad too.
Its me, trying to be normal when with the groups. It is tough, but I will do my best./
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